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I try to saved my self with make my heart numb.

It is worked somehow..

But still.. It feels sore .. It feels hollow.

You are there, but I can't reach it.
You are real, but unless in a dream, you are no where to be found.

I want you to want me, so I know it is not a one sided feeling.
But in the same time I know that I can't give you the rest of me.

I am cruel, yes I know that. I am keeping on asking you for my self but at the time I know you will waste.

I am selfish? It's been a clear fact. I better see you weak so I can be the one who giving a strength, because if it is not like that.. then it's mean I'll be the one who take a weak part and crush in pain.

I am sorry...
I am sorry for you
I am sorry for us
I am sorry to make this hard,
To not choose what we really want and to not found u at the right time..

(apaaa yaa ini... >,<)